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What does a day off look like for a stay at home mommy and housewife?  You never take a day off from being a mommy, but what about my 'work'?  Can I truly take a day off of cleaning, laundry, dishes...  not just take a day off of doing but also worrying about household issues?  SHOULD I?  Yes.  Father, help me obey your principle of trust and provision...

Action vs imagination.  I often IMAGINE that I am obedient, without ACTUALLY obeying.  That is disobedience.
ACTING on inspiration (or commandment) not just imagining.

Freedom from a religious spirit is a Holy thing.  But what about independence?  Is independence really a Holy thing?  Father, forgive my independence from you.   My warring, my battling to be free of authority, companionship, partnership and obedience to you.  Father...
                    upset my independence.

                                                                                    Undo my independence from you.  

things that cut to the quick

what would happen if we doubted our fears instead of our calling (purpose, talents, gifts, dreams)?

over communicate hope.

what would happen if we shouted love and honor in the face of human flaws?  especially those that hurt us deeply?

down down down.  low low low.

for the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.  1 timothy 1:7

pollen

stirring 
percolating
long time coming




so long it seems i'm bored with myself
bored with boarded up 
blocked out
switched off

time to stir
dump tump wash out the old? 

impossible

dried caked on plastered in
cant go over
but must go on
give the old room to breathe     
                                                                                               air out
                                                             air in

and stop waiting
breathe in something new
breathe deep

deeper still
feel it spread through the organ
                         sound a rumbling tumbling fresh wind
                               hear it
                      here it 
                 here
             hear
          here he is     
       hear 
     her